well, for starters, we have no fewer than four pentax k1000 cameras in use right now. if we had all decided upon caviar as our new habit, it may have been a cheaper decision. and yet...
we are eating outside again. we had begun a few weeks ago, and then came the deluge. but tonight was perfect. although our neighbor has had a tree removed, which for now makes six o'clock dining a bit unbearable. this too shall pass.
i drove home with anna from school this sunny day and noticed quite a few classmates walking home together, obviously on their way to playdates or to the park. and i realized with a sharp pang that she doesn't really have any friends her age once she leaves her school. i drive her home to be with girls and boys and us and it's all really, really good, but maybe she's missing something. i'm going to think on it, because while it may seem an easy answer, for us, it may not be so. we do have some circumstances that perhaps make the easy answer not so easy.
i stood in the back yard this afternoon: snack was out and homework was done; dinner had been long since planned and begun; the table setting had been set up for the girls to bring outside; the laundry was going; the kids off and running and happy.
and i almost cried. for just one or two minutes, it felt as if i was completely lost-bored, helpless and useless; and what the heck am i doing? this is all just too easy, and yet, so encompassing as to make doing anything else so hard...
and i remembered something i'd seen on amanda's blog:
"be content with what you have; rejoice in the way things are. when you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you."~ Lao Tzu
and with that thought, i went back inside, and finished dinner, and felt just fine.
best wishes.
xo,
tt
