


hi.
i've been playing around with film. i took two entire rolls today; one black + white, one color.
these look so dark to me...but i do like them anyway. each of them is a small piece of my day.
today was one of those days where i spend about three hours in the afternoon driving back and forth and to and fro and all around town picking up and dropping off and picking up, again. so i was able to also drop off and pick up some film, too.
i do love the look of film, and i love the click of the shutter, and i love (is this odd?) the anticipation of it. digital feeds right into my compulsive nature: i can take a shot-i can take seven!-and then get rid of the ones not quite right. i can do it again. i can do it again, right that very minute.
but...
i'm finding i so like to slow it down. let myself off the hook of getting it perfect, and just taking a leap of faith that my eye will be clear and my hand steady.
so...
i need to say out loud and emphatically that i do not consider myself a photographer. i find myself in increasingly good company, being inspired and encouraged by people who blow me away with their every picture. i am, for lack of a better term, green.
but, i also can say with utmost happiness and truth, that i have not been as excited about anything since learning to cook, having babies, and falling in love.
and that's really something.
more (color film) tomorrow. thanks for reading.
tt

